REFLECTION
ON MY BIRTHDAY
For some
strange reason I usually get very excited like a child and adrenaline mounts in
the days leading to an important or worth noting occasion (i.e. graduation,
ordination, birthday, anniversary etc) and it then suddenly drops on the actual
day of the occasion. I am yet to know or understand why. So today is my
birthday and though I was pestering friends about it such that I gave them a
birthday wish list!!! (It is okay dream). I woke up this morning and the
childlike excitement was gone and if anything the day has sobered me somewhat.
A lady
asked me how old I was and she mocked that she was twice my age upon hearing
that I was turning a mere 27 years. “THAT MEANS YOU HAVE MORE YEARS TO
ACCOUNT FOR” was my quick and sharp response. That was the end of our
mocking battle, and I had the last word! But I later got to think about my
words. I am actually going to give an account for 27 solid years! That’s 236520
hours to account for. The more sobering thought is who I will give an account
to, an all knowing, all wise, ever present God. He not only knows what I have
done and said in every second of my 27 years on earth but he also knows my
thoughts and intents of my heart, whatever a man sows that he shall reap. He
has known my underlining motivates behind every action, including service for
him. Every time I fooled people he was aware, every time I basked in people’s
praise and stole his glory he knew, he knew and discerned every word of gossip
and slander, every discontent attitude, every hypocritical action, and every
time I lived for self. I can only say like the prophet Isaiah “woe is me for I
am undone”.
To whom
much is given much is required and to whom they entrusted much, of him they
will ask all the more. These were the words of Jesus in Luke 12. Clearly the
one with 50 years has more to account for compared to the one with 10 years.
But they all give an account. At this point my thoughts go back to the master
gives these years. The sovereign Lord graciously bestows time on whom he
chooses. And with the time he also gives
the grace (enablement) to help us on our pilgrimage on earth. He has given us
his word to be a light to feet and a lamp on our path, it guides and directs.
And has given us a purpose for our existence- to live for him, that means
everything I do must be done to the glory of God and I should find joy and
satisfaction in pleasing an glorifying Him. To do anything for my glory is to
dethrone the master- that is an act of treason. To do anything apart from the glory
of God is reject the very essence of my existence.
I thank God
for entrusting me with the 27 years on earth and giving me the grace to reach
where I am and do all the things I have done. And though I am totally unworthy
and underserving, he is still patient with me and his love is steadfast and his
mercies are new every morning. I do not know how long I have left on this
earth, but my prayer my aim is that I may be a faithful steward of my time on
earth. That I may hear those glorious words “well done good and faithful
servant”!
Lord lift
me up and let me stand by faith on heaven table land. A higher plain where love
and joy and light abound, Lord plant my feet on higher ground. DO NOT WASTE
YOUR TIME